Repeating Apologies

In eighth grade, I had a best friend, Nykky. We met the previous year but had not talked that often. However, as the next school year began we talked more and more. Soon after eighth grade began, we became very close and practically inseparable. We knew almost everything about each other, and we did everything together. We both had been through very hard times and had issues, but we would always try and fix one another. She basically shaped me into the person that I am today. It was pretty much her and I against the world. I thought we were going to be friends forever, but I was wrong. Just as every friendship, we had are ups and downs. In May, we had a pretty big fight, over something I do not quite remember. We did not talk for a while because I was the cause of that situation. I apologized for my wrongs and tried to convince her to accept it and take me back. We reunited but remained friends for only about a month after that. I messed up again and ended our friendship once more. In August of that year, I realized that I still needed her in my life and tried to apologize again. Unfortunately, she said that she did not trust me and could not be close friends with me. Somehow, I regained some of her trust. Because our friendship grew unhealthy, we slowly drifted back apart and have not talked in over a year. Even though I still miss her sometimes, I am okay with the fact that we are no longer friends. I now have better friends, and I am sure that she does too. Losing someone that I truly loved was hard, but life went on and got better.