If It Means A Lot To You

I have something to say
I will spit it right out
I would like to say thank you, to music
For letting me be here today

Music helps me through everything
No matter what the situation is
I know it seems silly
But it has never failed

I wish they knew my love for it
But I can not fathom my appreciation
For music has always been there, when no one else has
And that is all I could ask for

Music is my true escape
It is better than the other
I do not like to do that to myself
And the melodies distract me from my deepest secret

Sometimes I do not know how I feel
I cannot explain my thought
Music puts the words into my mouth
It always knows what to say

I cannot be sad when I have music
It takes away all the pain, stress, and troubles
And reminds me to love the person I am
No matter what they say

Throughout the times we've spent together
I have been inspired to keep on going
There may be some blocks in the way
But I know the music will be waiting

I want to be just like it someday
And save somebody, like music did me
Music is my love, my life
I will never forget it, thank you.

Gorgeous Nightmare

   Last night, I attended a showing of "The Runway Movie", a movie about a male fashion designer, from Lorain, Ohio. His name is Jevon Terence, and he started his clothing line in 2006. Since then, he has been very successful in his career.

   The majority of the movie focused on a fashion show, that took place in the Spitzer Center, at Lorain County Community College. The outfits presented in this show were from Terence's Gods and Goddess collection. These outfits were all very unique, my favorite being a t-shirt with a picture of Jesus holding a sneaker, on the front. I was very curious as to wear the inspiration for this piece came from.

   However, the movie was rather disappointing, unless someone was very interested in ugly clothing. I was expecting this movie to be the story of how Jevon made his dream come true. Although, there were only about 10-15 minutes of him actually talking about starting his business. The quality of this video was very poor, too. It was obvious that it was not shot by professionals with adequate equipment. I would have enjoyed the show more, if it was more focused on Jevon and not his work.

   Even though the movie was not that good, I thought it was inspiring how Jevon came from a small city and achieved a lot. It shows that if someone really wants something, they can work hard at accomplishing their dreams.

Face The Music

   One interesting thing that happened this summer was that I went to my first concert. My friend Sarah , two of her friends, and I, all went to the Marianas Trench concert. The concert was in Cleveland, during June. It was such an amazing experience, and I wish I could go back to that night. 

   Marianas Trench are one of my favorite bands, because their music is so beautiful. Their songs have a lot of meaning to them, and they help me through a lot. I have some problems, so when I am feeling down, I turn to music. Tons of people always ask me how these bands can mean so much to me. I do not always answer them because they would not understand. I know it may seem like a silly thing, but I could not make it without music. 

   Being at this concert made me feel so many emotions. I was so happy, and I had not felt that way in a long time. When I was at the concert, all of my problems seemed to have disappeared. I was into the music so much, that I could not think about anything else. I am grateful to have these four ordinary people in my life. They are such a big inspiration to me. 

A Devil For Me

Heather, the name given to me by my mother
She thought it was perfect, at best.
It was nice at first, I liked it, I did.
So here is the story, of how it became a pest.

It was a beautiful thing, that name Heather
It was all my own.
Then, they pointed out every flaw and mistake
And now I wish I were never known.

 So many meanings,
So many thoughts,
Their words cut like razors.
I did not know what to do, I was never taught.

 “Heather, that fat girl.”
“Heather, she is gay.”
“Oh Heather? She cuts herself.”
It happened every single day.

 “Heather,” she said so many times
“I need you, I do
You mean so much to me, do not let me go.”
I promised I was not going to.

 She said the name Heather was something special
That it saved her in her darkest hour.
I did not believed it at first
But she was convinced it held a certain power.

 She was my best friend
Maybe even more than that, like a sister.
It was me and her against the world,
And it is sad to say I kind of miss her

 ‘Cause she meant a lot to me,
I had some problems, as I do now.
She helped me through them all
Now she is not here, we kind of had a vow.

So now it is easy to see,
The reason why I hate my name.
It just reminds me,
Of the person I became.

 Now how stubborn are these scars?
They will not fade away.
But they are just a reminder,
That now are better days.

 And here I sit, with a single thought
Heather, who am I really?
What does it all mean?
These questions are all just silly.

 It is a simple answer
Heather, that is me.
I am a person, just as everyone else
Heather, it is who I am, you see?

Heather, that is me
Someone I am learning to love.
Heather, I am unique,
Who lives way above.

Above those who hate me,
Just for being Heather.
I am getting better,
Learning to live with the name

        Heather